Hey where is the snow???

Hey where is the snow!  It is always so exciting to hear that it is going to snow... right!  They talk about it on the news and we start anticipating with hopes of a big blanket of white all around us.  I also think it builds some sort of hope and everyone gets this new excitement of something new and unsure of what will come, you start wondering with a mix of worry slash excitement and start asking the question in your mind...  will we get a dusting or several inches?  Going to bed you think wow when I wake up in the morning my yard will be filled with beauty as snow hangs on the trees and such.  I think about where the gloves are and do the snow boots still fit since the last time we wore them due to I can not remember when that was (laugh).  Oh well so here we are two days later and we saw a few flakes fall just enough to get us even more excited, however it was fun to feel that feeling even though it did not last.  I have decided that we will go find the snow after my boyfriend gets a truck.  Unfortunately his was totaled back in November and we are having issues finding the just right truck with everything we want for the money we have.  Welcome to life!!  But we have faith and it will happen and when it does we will head to the snow where I just may build me a Hello Kitty Snow Girl and throw snowballs at Jacob and Dwayne!  There are two things to look forward to right there, a new truck and fun in the snow!
I have found that in order to keep myself happy I need to have activities via large or small to look forward to.  I need a plan... I drive many people around me crazy due to they just get up and kind of let life happen but I have to have something to look forward to, no clue why but I have discovered that about myself.  I am actually in a better spirited mood when I am planning, or thinking of something to do.  If I am left to idly roam in my mind I find self pity and loathe who I am... wow how sad is that.  So... I am a much happier person since I have discovered this about myself.  I monitor my mood and if I feel out of sorts and about to be irrational I plan something for myself.  This is day 16 of not being mad or lashing out at my boyfriend or having him lash out at me over stupid stuff due to we have let our own mood ruin the day for the other.  Pretty groovy huh!  It is hard work and I am not talking about big plans here I am talking about the small stuff.  Keeping it simple, happy, and low budget for January...Today I am just enjoying my coffee in an almost clean house.  It just feels good to be letting my spirit shine!